Everything I'm not…Makes me Everything I am…

My Motivation for Success… Part II

Growing up it was a little easier for me than most because I have the greatest parents. Then I got to college and that is when I began to have struggles of my own. To start it off, I had a back injury and I was unable to play football and it all went downhill from there. My parents had done so much for me I began to try to do those things on my own because I didn’t feel that I should be asking them for anything if I’m not trying to help myself. So instead of asking, I just continued to struggle. I had so many jobs not even they knew about. I refuse to even put them on my resume because I think they are dumb and I am embarassed or they didn’t even last long enough. I began to wonder why I was even trying to do this.

One thing I always knew once I got into college was that I would be working for myself one day. One day I would not have to rely on anybody elses success but my own and I would pay my parents back for having such a wonderful childhood. I would tell myself this everyday. But even when I told myself this, I would even have my own doubts about it. I wasnt sure that it could ever happen. All of this time I would just hope that it would work out but I had very little faith in myself or anything else.

I remember living in Los Angeles with 8 friends in a 5 bedroom house. I didn’t even have my own room. I didn’t have a closet. I was living out of my suitcase that everyone knew was mine the whole time. I would be sleeping on an old beat up couch that was even too short for me and my 5’4″ frame. The place had potential, but with the way we lived it wasn’t the nicest place to be. To top it off, I didn’t have a car either. I would go to LenDale’s every once in a while in downtown L.A. so I could find my hunger again because at this time I had begun to develop a lazy personality even when it came to school and it had an effect on my academic progress. I couldn’t let my parents know this and I didn’t want to disappoint them so I had to change this.

At this time, I had also began to gain a lot of weight because I was living off of happy hour food, free meals from credit card offers and anything else I could get. I began to take what my parents gave me and tried to stretch it by using the dollar menu and we all know that menu isn’t the healthiest of them all. I put on 40 pounds in my first year of college. I believe my confidence had been shot now. I was having a little fun, but all in the wrong ways. Believe me, I found ways to enjoy myself. I was living in one of the biggest cities with way more energy than I could handle and beautiful women. The women weren’t even that interested in me with my short stature and growing belly. But that’s another story. I began to grow out my hair and eventually had braids. I was going in the wrong direction and fast!

I always knew I wanted to do something that I loved. I just had no idea what it was at the time and I wasnt as motivated to find it as I thought I would have been. I didn’t feel I was qualified to do anything yet. Then came the call…

I would be having a baby…

Stay tuned for part III.


December 21, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration, My Life... | | 2 Comments


What is SUCCESS??? Below are some of my favorite inspirational quotes that have to do with SUCCESS

There is only one success–to be able to spend your life in your own way.
-Christopher Morley

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
-Thomas Jefferson

Keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself.
-Theodore T. Hunger

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.
-Robert Collier

The thing always happens that you really believe in; and the belief in a thing makes it happen.
-Frank Loyd Wright

Success is not measured by what you accomplish but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds.
-Orison Swett Marden

A failure is a man who has blundered, but is not able to cash in on the experience.
-Elbert Hubbard

The greatest results in life are usually attained by simple means and the exercise of ordinary qualities. These may for the most part be summed in these two: common-sense and perseverance.
-Owen Feltham

Failures do what is tension relieving, while winners do what is goal achieving.
-Dennis Waitley

The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack in will.
Vince Lombardi

November 17, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration | Leave a comment

A Moving Night with F.C.A…

Last night’s F.C.A. (Fellowship of Christian Athletes) and Team United meeting…

I haven’t blogged about a FCA experience but with what happened last night, I feel that I have to. I have been faithfully attending the meetings for some time now. These meetings have been very moving and spiritually uplifting for me. But none of the previous meetings had the effect of the meeting last night. Everyone was moved and I will always remember what happened on Thursday, November 12, 2009.

Chaplain Roger Woods III has spoken to us about unity but there was a different vibe last night. With what happened with 3 of my VOL teammates as well as another young woman, it was a very emotional night for our VOL Family.

To begin the meeting, Chaplain Roger Woods III introduced us to his friend and spiritual brother, Jake Gullege. Mr. Gullege began by setting the atmosphere by praying for the 3 Vols that made a mistake and sang a couple of the songs. A couple of the songs that stuck out were “We Fall Down” and “Never Would Have Made It.” Once Mr. Gullege opened his mouth to sing, the anointing was exemplified in his voice.

It was obvious that everyone in the room became vulnerable to the Holy Spirit through his songs. There were on their knees crying. People were laid out on the floor. People had their hands raised surrendering to GOD. There were teammates consoling other teammates. The message through his songs was moving people to tears. You can definitely tell that the message was getting through to everyone in the room.

Mr. Woods also introduced us to HIS Spiritual Father, Danny Buggs. Mr. Buggs had an unusual way of getting his message across, but he definitely got through to us. He would have somebody read the Bible verses while he would explain, in great depth, the meaning of the verse. It was a great message about how those of us that are UNASHAMED should be pulling our fellow believer’s coattails and be the Nathan to the David.

When Mr. Buggs was through speaking, Mr. Gullege blessed us with his music once again. And again, everyone was moved. While this was going on, the members of the Vol football team rallied in the back of the room for prayer. Mr. Woods joined in and gave us a very important message as well.

After we finished the meeting with prayer, one of my Vol teammates from the incident the night before, Mike Edwards, walked through the door. When Mike walked in everyone embraced him and let him know that he was still our brother and that he is still loved. Mr. Buggs delivered a message to him and Mike rededicated his life to GOD, and we all prayed for him once again. Later on another player from the incident, Janzen Jackson, walked through the doors himself and did the same thing.

Thursday, November 12, 2009 may have been one of the most incredible nights of my life and I believe it was a life changing experience for me as well as many others in attendance. As one football player said, we came together as a family, not a team.

I was able to experience what the Lord could do in ACTION!  And as another said about that night, it was UNBELIEVABLE!

I want to thank Chaplain Roger Woods III for giving us the opportunity to fellowship with others and being there for us through everything.

November 13, 2009 Posted by | Encouragement, Inspiration, Tennessee Football | , , , , , , | 1 Comment

What is FOTU???

People always ask me what it means when I say I’m FOTU with it. This is FOTU

I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit
Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has
been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won’t look back, let up, slow
down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense,
and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight
walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions,
mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or
popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised,
regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by
patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my
way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear.
I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted,
or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the
presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the
pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of

I won’t give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I’ve preached up, prayed
up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a
disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop,
preach until all know, and work until He comes.

And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My
colors will be clear for “I am not ashamed of the Gospel, because it is the
power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes..” (Romans 1:16)

November 8, 2009 Posted by | Encouragement, Inspiration | Leave a comment

Instructions for Success…

Instructions For Success

8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth;
meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do
everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and

If you desire to succeed, here are the instructions.

You may follow other plans that promise success, but you have
no guarantee they will work long-term. People may give you
advice that works for a while — but can you be sure it will not
fail you someday?

With God you have an eternal guarantee: His Word will never
fail. Heaven and earth will disappear before even the smallest
detail of God’s Word will fail.

Look at God’s success instructions again. Study them in detail.
Surely if anything is worth your time, this promise of God is.

First, speak in line with God’s Word. Isn’t it interesting that
the first instruction from God for success has to do with what
you say? Some people proclaim that what you say doesn’t matter,
but God puts it at the top of the list.

Second, meditate on what God said. This is the opposite of
worry. This is more than just reading the Bible. (Although if
you never read it, how could you meditate on it?) This is
thinking about what God says and how it affects everything.

When are we to think about God and His Word? When it is day, or
when it is night. Any other time, you can safely shut God out
of your thoughts.

Look at what God promises will be yours if you follow these
instructions: prosperity and success. What everyone wants, but
few are willing to do what it takes to achieve.

Of course you can ignore these instructions. But why would you?

SAY THIS: I will speak God’s Word, meditate on it, and act on
it. Then God promises I will be prosperous and successful.

A Devotion

November 6, 2009 Posted by | Devotionals, Encouragement, Inspiration | Leave a comment

Living Simply…

Are you blowing it?

What is your standard of living? Is it the same as your parents, or even your grandparents? I bet your standards are much higher. It’s funny to me how things that we believe are necessities are things our grandparents would call luxuries. Could that be why we are so ungrateful? We all shouldn’t make ourselves feel so deprived.

The more I pay attention to what we spend our money on, the more I see that these things are not necessities at all. They are just wants.

We should all start to live more simply. Living simply can only help to sober us. Im am now learning that we need to control our desires and focus more on things that actually matter and the things that are actually needed. By focusing on the smaller things, it seems as if I am able to enjoy life more. The less time I spend trying to force riches or trying to impress people, the more I am enjoying life. I am also being able to experience more by doing so.

By trying to live more simply, it has helped me to get my priorities straight. I am giving my attention to what is really important to me, like my daughter, family, friends, and most importantly my GOD. Yes, I still enjoy nice things, but the feelings I get by receiving these nice things seems to only last for a short moment of time. The feelings are temporary.

Living simply has also given me an opportunity to live more and give more to those in need.

So why live simply?

Because living simply allows you to LIVE!

November 1, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration, Personal Finance | 2 Comments

Beauty Tips for Everyone…


For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For beautiful eyes, look for
the good in other people.

To lose weight, let go of stress, hatred, anger, contentment and the need to
control others.

To improve your ears, listen to the word of God. Rather than focus on the
thorns of life, smell the roses and count your blessings, giving thanks for
each one of them.

For poise, walk with knowledge and self-esteem.To strengthen your arms, hug
at least 3 people a day. Touch someone with your love.

To strengthen your heart, forgive yourself and others. Don’t worry and
hurry so much.

Rather than walk this earth lightly, walk firmly with determination and
leave your mark.

For the ultimate in business, casual or evening attire put on the robe of
Christ; it fits like a glove but allows room for growth. Best of all, it
never goes out of style and is appropriate for any occasion.

Doing these things on a daily basis will certainly make you a more beautiful

Peace Is Not The Absence Of Trouble But The Presence of God

October 29, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration | 1 Comment

My Journey Back to the Field…

Not long ago I was eating and swapping stories with some old football buddies and they began to joke about me being the oldest on the team. It made me think of what I had to go through to get to this point in my life.

Before this season, I had been away from the football field for 5 seasons. That’s longer than most player’s entire college careers. I’ve been to Los Angeles to Fort Collins and now I am here in Knoxville at the University of Tennessee.

There have been a number of bumps in the road preventing me from playing football at the college level. Starting with being undersized for the sport and dealing with all the politics involved with the sport, then dealing with injuries all while trying to juggle me2being a student and a young father as well. But I could not let these obstacles deter me from my dream. I had to maintain my faith and keep pushing towards my goal. I had to refuse to quit. I had to mend an old wound and I hope to inspire others by doing so.

In the spring of 2009, I finally became a part of the Tennessee Volunteers football team; two years after enrolling. I went through the spring dealing with even more complications that kept me away from the field for most of spring practice. I went all the way through the summer not knowing if I would be invited to fall camp.

On the first day of camp I received a call to report to fall camp and to move into the dorm. I was excited because it was official, but I was also nervous because this would be the first camp I had experienced since high school. It was a great feeling. However, I had played cornerback and two days into camp I was moved to Running back. I hadnt played that position since I was in junior high. I was nervous, but I felt that it was a better move for me.

Throughout camp I had turned some heads with my surprising play at a position I hadnt played in almost 10 years. In our first scrimmage I only received one carry because I had just been moved to the position. It ended up being a run that caught the eye of many of the coaches. The next week I received praise from many of them. But when our Defensive Coordinator, Monte Kiffin, the greatest defensive mind in all of football came up to me, I knew I had done something right. I continued to do this through the rest of camp, but towards the end of camp, the tide turned on me again.

I became ill in the last few days of camp and missed the most important scrimmage. When I returned the next week, I had lost some ground and wasn’t able to compete. After about a week I was back into the routine and had another great week.

On September 5, 2009, I was able to experience some great Tennessee traditions. I was able to do the Vol Walk and run through the “T.” The next week I was on the service team helping prepare our defense for the #1 Florida Gators. The defensive coaches were ecstatic of my efforts. But….again, another hurdle was thrown in my way.

meWhile doing team drills that week, I made a plant on my left foot and was unable to put any weight on it. I later learned that I had torn the tendon on the bottom of my foot. Not again…

I wondered if God was telling me that I needed to stop. But I don’t believe he gave me the opportunity to experience these things for no reason. Sometimes God uses trials to get us back on track. Most of us have chosen an unhealthy and worldly lifestyle that is self-destructive. Most of the times trials can knock us back to our senses. It can give us a reality check. All is not well. And most importantly you are not well.

Well today was my first day back on the field in over 7 weeks. My foot isnt completely healthy but I was able to take part in all the practice drills and I am excited to be back. On my first carry I was given a good “Welcome Back” smack.

I hope to inspire all of you with my story. I just want to let all of you know that things get hard but that doesn’t mean that its time to give up.

Trials are opportunity for your personal growth and greatness. Do not run away from it.

October 29, 2009 Posted by | Encouragement, Inspiration, My Life..., Tennessee Football | 3 Comments

My Eyes Are Opened…

Below is a modified song that tells my story and how my eyes have been opened. Some of you may have seen it because I posted it on my Facebook page a while back. I want to make sure everyone reads this. Get to know me…

Good evening brethren, let’s go a special direction.
Look back, let’s meet a young’n that was born in 85.
His parents were so happy, rejoicing at their new blessing.
He breathes life, at the same time death without a question.
His parents gazed in his eyes, adoring him as he hollers.
He got his eyes from his father, he got his nose from his mama.
It’s crazy how this baby, is so precious but I’m saddened
He got his name from first lady, and his depravity from Adam.
That’s how it goes and hey look as he grows
You can see he’s so blind, his eyes seem as they closed.
He’s so weak and it shows, he can’t keep from what He knows
Is wrong, he knows it’s bad but dang he wants it though.
And all throughout his years, he looks good to his peers
And his parents, and his self but if we could only peer
On the inside, we’d see that from the start it was dark
Until a Savior stepped in and gave Him a new heart, eyes opened!

Yeah I was blinded in the past, like my mind was in the trash
Incapable of doing good or even finding him the task.
Was beyond what I could grasp, my righteousness is rags
So He had to do all the work, by His design you do the math.
The math, who get’s the glory, hey who get’s the praise?
Predestined, I was elected, resurrected from the grave.
Plus His loved was never based on my past or present state
On anything that I obtained I was a mess but blessed with grace.
By grace, I’m in love with Him.
He gave me something within.
He doesn’t love me cause of me…nope He loves me because of Him.
No He didn’t have to save and raise me when I was dead
But He dragged me out the morgue, now the praise of His name is spread.
He died for all He would save, it’s crazy the Savior bled
Erasing taking my dread, and gave me some grace instead.
The kind I wouldn’t resist, I came praise be to Him
And I’m confident if I’m in Him Ima make it to the end with my eyes open!
 Now that my eyes is open, gotta keep that Bible open.
Not just so that I can quote Him, I’m hopin’ that I’ll behold Him
Until I lay in the grave, I’m praying I’ll stay in motion.
Gazing with eyes of faith He gave me baby, I’m focused.
I’m praying all through my 20’s I’ll see Him in 20/20
Looking at Him till I look like Him almost like His twin He’s
So merciful, His Word is so packed I’m telling many
About the glory of Christ, tryna rep Him with all that’s in me!

October 28, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration, My Life... | 2 Comments

Why do we seek success???

Why do I seek success???

In these days people seem to desire success more than ever. I often see people quoting or singing Drake’s song “I just Wanna Be Successful.” People would do anything and sacrifice anything for success. But what is funny to me is that a lot of people don’t actually know what success they’re chasing after. Not many people put a lot of thought into it. I love to see others succeed, and I feel that most of us are pursuing success without any clear goal. People rarely ask themselves the question, “Why am I chasing success?” “What is my purpose in doing the things that I am doing?”

All of us want to be happy. If you look at it, in the end, people want success to be happy. Success is a means to find joy. But we have a problem. We have sought the means and not the end. People want to be successful just for the sake of being successful. Don’t be obsessed with the process. Focus on the product.

I have heard that being an accomplished person is not the same as being a successful person. This is something that I can agree with. There are many people who have accomplished some terrible things. I have also seen some accomplished individuals that seem to be very miserable. Some even become miserable trying to obtain success. Doesn’t that defeat the purpose???

There is a saying that I’ve lived by the last couple years of my life. “Never let successes get to your head, and never let failures get to your heart.” I’ve had many highs, as well as many lows. From now on I plan to stay floating high.

This is the beginning of a series of why I seek success and why I am who I am.

So why do you seek success???

October 27, 2009 Posted by | Inspiration, My Life... | 1 Comment